The Random Ramblings of 2am

I have to go to work this morning.
Stupid, stupid, stupid........

Do not be awake at 2am when you have to be up at 7:30am.

Meanwhile, I was writing an assignment. 1000 words down, 1500 to go :-s
Is this blathering important? I mean, in all honesty, who really cares. Because I don't, and I'm the one blogging about it.

Sometimes my blog is just my excuse for not getting out there and talking to people.
"She hates being lonely, but she wants to be alone" - lyrics from a song.

I'm over 19. Bring on 20.

On second thoughts...............

Does it ever scare you (if you're my age) that next year you're going to be 20? 20 is old! 20 is an adult! 20 is "I know where I'm going, I know what I'm doing, I'm confident and secure."

I think I'm just going to be 20 and old - one out of three ain't bad. ("Yes it is, it's only 33 percent!" "Shut up!" ~line from a Terry Pratchett book, but I don't remember which one.~)

Ah, that's getting a bit bleak really, isn't it? 20 isn't that old. I just can't believe that I'm going to be 20. Admittedly not for another four months.

20!!!!!!!

My mind has a tendency to recycle old thoughts and worries, unless I can stop them with a new thought. There it goes again......20.........

I woke up on my 19th birthday thinking "where did the last 19 years go?"
Please don't let that happen again.

Am I nuts? Am I having a mid-life crisis at 19? (Does that make it a quarter-life crisis?) If so, where's my red Ferrari and good-looking guy in the passenger seat? (Heh, if I'm having the Ferrari, I'm driving :-p) Hey, maybe they're my 20th birthday presents :-p *yeah, right*

PLACES TO VISIT ONE DAY:
Longreach

Rockhampton (to see if it really is the hole I've been told it is)

Cairns (more than the airport this time)
Perth
Whitsundays!!!!!!!!!!! yeah :-)
Lodge St (my grandma was born there)
Sunshine Coast

CRAZY ADVENTURES TO HAVE:
Wing it on public transport to.......I don't know. Wherever I end up. Then try to get back home again ;-)

*Actually that's about as adventurous as I get, sorry*

PLACES NOT TO GO:
Adelaide (apologies if you were born there, you like it or are moving there. I just don't like it)
Prison
Mental institute

HIGH SCHOOL MOMENTS I WISH I COULD RE-LIVE:
Endless lunchtimes of Warlords and Scumbags
"Gary's becoming a shark at handball!" *isn't the word shark so funny :-)*
Laughing about our crazy music teacher's antics
"Algebra is beautiful. We love algebra" - yr 9 maths teacher
The formal
End-of-year bludging
Those moments when you learned something you needed to know, solved a big problem and felt like you'd grown so much.


HIGH SCHOOL MOMENTS I'M GLAD ARE OVER:
Grade 10 advanced maths
The last half of year 12

UNI MOMENTS I WISH I COULD RELIVE:
Performance 1
Performance 2
Performing our compositions in Core Mus 1 *I'm seeing a pattern here*
Telling 2 of my friends about Jesus :-)

UNI MOMENTS I'M GLAD ARE OVER:
Music and sound technology!!!!!!
That awkward feeling when you know you're turning bright red
That awkward feeling when you've just said you're a Christian and everyone's like................................

SAD LYRICS I LIKE:
I talked to absolutely no-one
Couldn't keep to myself enough
And the things bottled inside
Had finally begun to create so much pressure
As to blow up and
I heard the reverberating footsteps
Sinking up to the beating of my heart
And I was positive that unless
I got myself together I would watch me fall apart ~Relient K~

WHAT I REALLY WANT RIGHT NOW:
A Milo
Sleep
A hug

WHAT I REALLY CAN HAVE RIGHT NOW:
Sleep.

Good night/morning.